Brother where are you?

We've been through this

a hundred times

a thousand

in all those gaps

in the conversation

in all those breaks

between the lines

in all those absences

Something is missing

and I wonder if it's you

I wonder where you are

and when you left

because I never saw you go

you were just gone

and I followed in your footprints

but I've got bigger feet

I've filled in the outlines

of where you were

with where I've gone

I've superimposed myself

on phantoms of you

and together

we've walked through the world

to come out the other side

I used to be so sure of you

so sure you were a you

someone I could use

to construct a me

so sure that I chased

that fleeting hope

to recognize myself

in the eyes of another

I guess I'm all grown up now

or stupid enough

to want to be a grown up

to want an identity

of my own

there's a long way to go yet

but I know I'll get there

knowing you came this way